I Would Rather…

I would rather be alone than to settle for being ALMOST number one… I have tried to force love… I tried to win a man's heart by buying it… but i never won… so skip it.. That phase is done… I would rather masturbate than to be filled with some "sometimey" dick and self hate… …

SHE.

She…   She spent most of her life up to this point blinded, she spent her life in the darkness… her self respect was lost, she went through hell, determined to find it  so SHE… needs a bit of a “detrimental to her life” separation, she is trying to stop herself from becoming heartless… because …

the names i have called myself part TWO

since you all loved part one so much...

write… or die….

Hey guys… I know its been a minute, I had to step back. I had some things to finish. Lately I felt like the me I have been trying to be was trying to diminish… but I am splendid... I just had to learn land pretty because I needed to fall… Since I been writing, …

When you repress your trauma to save your mama…

I always thought you were perfect… your skin, your eyes… your face… and even your lies… I idolized your deceit… I was your keeper, shackled by an image even you never lived up to, I was always looking to be your favorite, graveling at your feet. But how could I compete with your need to …

Superhero Strength.

Yesterday i said “I love you” to my rapist… I know it’s unhealthy but I’m quite courageous sweetie and I promise you I can take it… we actually laugh together now… real shit I don’t even fake it.I don’t know how… but I hate him, and i love him in the same half hour… and not …